Rachel's

"Its a milestone birthday" they all say. "How are you celebrating?" They all ask. I am turning 40 in a few days and It brings up all kinds of emotions, some good, some bad. But, most of all it enhances the vast difference between the number on your birthday card to how i actually feel inside. I often feel like an imposter, pretending to be all lady like, trying my best to be a good mother and role model and sassy but yet composed wife. While inside I am still that awkward c

Life is often hidden in the "In-between". In between work and taking the kids to practice, the song you love the most comes on, and you feel a sense of joy. That is life. In between crying and shouting, for sometimes everything is too much, you sit on the floor and surrender to the pain. that is life. In between the endless to do list and daily grind, you plummet on the sofa next to your partner, with a glass of wine, a smelly cheese and stale cracker. That is life. In the m

After having Olive who is now 7 years old, I promised myself that I am not having any more children. As the years passed, I began to...

I am a shell filled with solid concrete. Concrete so heavy, so dense, and yet I am hollow. I lift my eyes up to the sky and ask for some...

So often in life we are already moving on to the next thing. The next house chore we have to get done before the kids return from school;...

We all remember being young and frustrated; frustrated for being misunderstood. There is an age you start drifting away from your...

Savage Land A savage land drenched with blood. A savage land that still, even though all that has happened, is filled with hope. We left...

You will get up and start again. You will believe once more in life. At night you might be overcome with despair, But the morning will...

Those days when you feel like you are losing on all fronts. When all the water seems to slip away between your fingers. You are trying to...

It was just another day... A Saturday to be exact. Yay! the weekend. The weather was stormy, so what could be better on a wet rainy day?...

So how did you celebrate the New Year? After four big glasses of wine, too much stinky cheese and very greasy potato chips, I was asleep...

You arrived. It took a while… But finally, you came into our lives. You fought, As did she. There was an endless pause, For that...

The weeks roll away from us. The snowball gets bigger and bigger, But yet, you feel so small. Powerless even. Have I lost control? Have...

Inspired by the recent ongoing events... If arguing about the pettiest, meaningless things was an Olympic sport, I am quite sure many of...

This is probably the most intimate blog I have posted. Looking at the picture, of me breastfeeding Olive (my youngest) at the hospital,...

So, it's my birthday tomorrow and I am experiencing my normal B-day blues. Yes, I am one of those people that on one hand waits for the...

Who are we without social media? If I don't regularly post an inspirational photo on Instagram, does that mean I am not an inspiring...

Forgive yourself, Forgive me. I have let you down at times, I have let myself down. We have all walked down paths we have regretted. We...

I feel guilty if I do, I feel guilty if I don't. I feel guilty if I try too hard, I feel guilty for letting go. I feel guilty the food is...

I will wait for you, At the coffee shop, where we once sat. I will run past where you now lay, yearning for your touch. Whispering out...